Tag: baby steps

Monday, July 26th, 2010

Garden Perspectives

I read a fridge magnet one time that said “A weed is just a flower growing in the wrong place.” Even though the gardener in me thinks “What a crock! Thistles are just EVIL, period,” the hippy in me can’t help but nod in silent agreement. I mean, beauty can be found just about anywhere, if you look with the right eyes. Abandoned buildings, creepy-crawlies, old ladies in bathing suits … yes, even “weeds” can be enchanting – with just the right lighting.

Goatsbeard

Goatsbeard going to seed – THAT’s how abundant the weeds are.

Even though I have yet to find a good chunk of time to seriously tackle the annoyances in the garden, I have eked out a few minutes here and there snapping some pics of what’s in bloom (or going to seed, as the case may be). It’s really hard to think of the borage as a “weed” though, even if it is growing far from where it was originally planted. At one time I had a definite “plan” for the garden, but I am trying to let nature do her thing and leave some plants growing wherever they have decided to. Just not the weedy-weeds. After all, she probably has way more experience than I do at this sort of thing.

Borage

Borage blooming in entirely the wrong place – a beautiful accident.

The lavender is particularly enjoyable too right now, though for a very different reason. Yes, it’s pretty in it’s petite purple ways, but I love wandering by it and giving the unopened buds a gentle squeeze to get the scent on my hands. Of course, this results in me sniffing my hands all day, which is more than a little peculiar to those not in the know, but oh, well. A girl’s got to do what a girl’s got to do.

Lavender

There’s nothing more sweet smelling than fresh lavender.

There have been a couple of things I’ve been able to keep up with this year – like the produce boxes and the flower pots on the deck. Somehow, having things contained like that make them easier to tackle weed-wise. It’s like housecleaning, I suppose. If you think “I have to clean the entire house” it’s far more overwhelming than simply “I have to clean the living room.” Baby steps and all that.

Geranium

A geranium on the deck, getting a cuddle from the baby snaps.

And last but not least, for today that is, the rose. I have absolutely no idea what kind it might be, as roses don’t tend to over-winter well around here, and I’ve stopped keeping track of the varieties I try out. But this one is clearly in the perfect sheltered place in the garden as it’s been around for several years now. Whether it’s a single bud in a little glass vase or a scatter of petals in the bath, you can’t beat the simple elegance of the rose.

Roses

A rose is a rose is a rose.

Well, would you look at that. I guess this might be one of those times when I don’t want to see the forest for the trees. Every time I sit on the front steps, I am filled with a sense of dread about the overall chaos in the garden right now. (I’m a bit of a control freak in case you weren’t aware.) But, when I actually head out to take photos in it, I can find no end of beautiful little vignettes that capture my eye. It’s funny. “Getting some perspective” usually involves taking a look at the “big picture”, but I see now that that’s not always the case. ;)

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Tuesday, July 13th, 2010

Taking The Neo-Renaissance Woman’s Way

I have a confession to make. It’s one that you might find a little alarming, so perhaps you’d better sit down for this. I… Well… I have never – not one little bit even – ever read “The Artist’s Way”. Shocking, I know! But the sad truth of the matter is, this book has been sitting patiently on my bookshelf for years, just waiting to be cracked open and devoured, but to no avail. Sorry, Julia Cameron. I am a bad, bad person. *sigh* On the plus side, I just pulled the dusty book off the shelf and found my calligraphy instructions that went missing about the time of our last move – so, yay! But seriously,what on earth can I possibly be thinking?!?!

The Artist's Way

“The Artist’s Way” – a book I know many of my friends adore.

After much soul searching on the subject, I have come to the conclusion that it boils down to two main issues – the ubiquitous fear of failure, and the more perplexing fear of success. On the one hand, there is no end to the arty/crafty things I wish to create. Not that I consider myself an “artist” per se, but I’m not sure I really want to be. When people ask me what I “DO”, I usually reply, “Well, right now I’m a stay-at-home-mom, but in my free time I …” at which point I list whatever projects I’ve been working on lately: headshots or set pieces for performer friends, costumes or promotional material for the theatre, teaching a class on nature drawing or bird identification, or doing any other of my varied hobbies – which now includes creative blogging… So, yeah. Neo-Renaissance Woman (with too many options) trumps Artist (with the associated “blocks” therein).

Then there’s the whole “observer effect” – the mere act of closely looking at something is bound to change it. I remember with heart-wrenching clarity all of the classes in university where we would analyze a poem or artwork or movie to death. Once the critical brain got going on a particular subject, it was hard to turn it back off and merely enjoy a piece for what it was. Talk about vampirism (I’m more of a “team Spike” gal than anything btw). At the time, it seemed as though most of my professors were intent on sucking the magic out of just about everything I was interested in. But, I digress. Suffice to say I worry that reading the book (and several others that look interesting about creativity and making art and blogging and so on) will alter the good mojo I already have going on – in a bad way.

Look Deep Into My Eye

Looking too closely at things can sometimes rob them of their magic.

But. Clearly I am missing out on something, as so many of the people I admire either recommend the book, credit the book for some of their greatness, or have at the very least read the darn thing. Not to mention all of the other books… What’s the worst that could happen? Well. I could lose a great many hours (as I am a horribly slow reader) of my already extremely precious free time. I could discover that the way I do things is “wrong”, that I am a “hack”, or that I don’t relate to being an “artist” at all (which, in spite of the label, would break my heart just a little bit). I could end up wallowing in a deep, dark, bottomless black hole of self-pity and spiraling shame. Well, we are talking worsts now, aren’t we?

Or. I could discover a whole new world of possibilities. I could unleash something bigger than my current self which could take over my life as I know it. I could learn to be and learn to love being an “artist”. Believe it or not, all of these things scare me just a little bit right now. I think it has something to do with how crazy everything is already – the boys, the reflux, the house, the garden, the relationships, the creative blogging, etc. – the prospect of things getting even crazier might very well push me over the edge. I guess what I’m trying to say is that I don’t think I’m ready to take that leap just yet. Soon maybe, but not just yet. So, unless you can convince me otherwise, I am putting my copy back up on the shelf and seeing where my own mojo will lead me. Baby steps.

And on that note, I did a little scrapbooking today – baby’s first bath. I really wanted to do “Baby’s First Steps” to tie into today’s post, but alas, I am soooo far behind. I find with scrapbooking at least, I work best chronologically, so bath it is. At first I went for my usual “quick and dirty” L-layout.

Max's First Bath L-layout

But then I noticed a few more photos that I thought I might include, so I figured I’d try something a bit more “creative”.

Max's First Bath - Bubbles

I’m not sure if it’s “better” or not, but it sure felt good to try something different (just a little bit different, mind you) than my norm. Anyhow, the simple one will go in my book and the bubble one in the baby’s, so everybody wins. Hurrah! And now, what to do with the rest of a rainy afternoon? Curl up with a good boo…oh, wait. Maybe not. Perhaps I will just read some awesome instead (a little reward for those of you who actually read this far…) ;)

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